So... I took a rather long break. It's been a busy few months and honestly, I haven't made a huge amount of progress. It was somewhat too easy relying on the denial wheel, instead of progressing with the punishment thread. Things calmed down towards the end of 2018 and I started again. I went back to regular (mostly) daily teasing and start adhering to the thread rules again. I am no longer reporting report daily, I've committed to reporting weekly on Get Dare, but even that was a stretch and I've already had to post punishment rules for not following that schedule. With everything that has been going on on Tumblr I've hesitated about starting to blog again. But I think it might be time. Will decide later if I'm sticking to just Blogger or continuing to do Tumblr too.
If things become to hectic again or if the no touch just becomes too much, I 'll take another hiatus but will try to set a pre-determined time this time around.
For those who are curious I landed on a choice wedge once and he was nice enough to allow me 3 orgasms. I was allowed 45 minutes of clit tickling with the wool calligraphy brush, followed by 10 minutes with the magic wand (if I could not come from the brush alone), I also landed on orgasm once on my own. I also landed on ruined orgasm once. So I have had 2 days when I got to have orgasm and 1 day with a ruined orgasm since this began.
If I do do the hiatus again I am going to remove all the orgasm options other than the choice options. That will allow for a small chance to orgasm, but leave it under someone else's control.
I started actively working on the punishment tread again on December 29th. Since I've received pretty regular teasing sessions and pretty much done daily punishment sessions. My reports for those are available on the punishment thread for those interested. Sorry but there's just too much to post here. I think I may just leave the reports for the punishment to get dare. I'll reserve this just to talk about my denial and how I'm feeling with regard to that denial.
I guess if I'm going to talk about how I'm feeling (horny), I do need to give you some details. First I've given control of my cunt and my clit to R, he's been providing me daily teasing since this started so this just seemed like the natural progression. He seems to understand that I have a real life and I trust him. We've recently started playing with my Lovense toys and have taken things to a whole new level. We've done various sessions sometimes just inserting the Lush which is a basically a big bullet vibe and wearing it throughout the day has I did house work. R then got to turn it on randomly has I went about my day, We recently decided that this will be a regular Saturday afternoon even. I will insert the vibe every Saturday and it will be up to him whether or not to turn it on. The idea of being stuffed and at someone else's mercy is erotic.
We've also done some more intense sessions where I've tied myself up set a timer inserted the vibe and blindfolded myself. Laying there with my legs spread not knowing when the pleasure would come or how long it would last, was intense. So he hasn't pushed me far enough to force an orgasm out of me, but we've talked about it and even agreed on punishments if and when it happens.
The thread while not very active still produces more punishments than I can keep up with, so my denial is indefinite. I'm frustrated, but not desperate at the moment. The part that I'm struggling with is that I'm on no touch, at least when it comes to my pussy and clit. I'm only ever allowed to touch my clit with R's instructions and I'm getting very desperate. I'm allowed to play with my nipples and my ass, but I'm on holiday with family and don't have any toys. I can't seem to stop pinching my nipples though. I really really wish I could just finger my clit a little bit.
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